Spring has returned. The Earth is like a child that knows poems. ~Rainer Maria Rilke
Showing posts with label New Year thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New Year thoughts. Show all posts

Friday, January 8, 2010

I Keep Telling Myself

My brain is feeling a little like the egg I ate this morning..., not completely cooked but a little bit runny and not accompanied with something wonderful like bacon or sausage .
So, after I ate this incomplete breakfast, I went outside and realized that Spring was trying very hard to break through the leaf covered soil of Winter and even though the garden seemed stark, at a glance, something was happening.... something magical where nothing had been before.
There is a green carpet under the dead grass. There are tiny buds on the tree limbs. The New Year is slowly showing itself. Little by little, fragile bud by fragile bud, it shows us that life continues ...,so we pick up the pieces and move ahead into the future where life will be what it will be...., and, like " My little dog,.. a heartbeat at my feet.", on our walk last night ,I will try to look for the great adventure, seeing and listening for something wonderful that is going to happen...., knowing that whatever comes, it will be OK.
I see the Narcissus and the grape hyacinth coming back, even through the tough soil of Winter. I tell myself that this is what I need to understand...,
and I keep hearing a voice say, "Live your life. Live your life...., do you understand?"
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Sunday, December 27, 2009

Reminders and a Bag of Magic Sand

I put my coat on this morning to take Carl for a walk and when I reached into my pocket I retrieved a handful of this....
Reminders of my day with the Bean. There, I found a Kleenex, half a candy cane, a tiny white feather, a dried yellow flower and a small fake poinsettia flower. The bean had found or used them all. What wonderful memories in my pocket. Each one a reminder of the "handsome" day at the Martinez Marina. ( My grandson's new, favorite word is HANDSOME. Everything that is wonderful and beautiful..., and worthy of comment is, by his definition, "handsome". I love this expression.

I found this Christmas decoration in a box at my son's house. It was something I had given Mom two Christmas' ago. It made me laugh and it made her laugh too . For all you Cat lovers out there, it's kind of a "blond" joke about cats. In a way it says..., do the things you're good at and don't try to be something you're not. It's funny but there's a message here.
Mrs. Claus looks a bit exhausted. She is probably going to recommend using REINDEER to her husband.... Now you know the rest of the story.



The last photo(below) is an ornament that I bought years ago. It's Santa holding a big bag of MAGIC SAND. Don't we all wish we could find some of this stuff?
This small ornament reminds me that the wishes of my childhood were made out of the magic sand of my imagination but the reality of growing up is knowing that we don't always get everything we want and that most things we do receive require a lot of effort.
Magic sand is there but it's inside of us.I think, though, that it's kind of like Dorothy's Ruby Slippers in the Wizard of Oz. We all have the answers to our problems and the ability to have our dreams come true. We just have to believe and be flexible..., and not invest too heavily in the outcome. We may need someone like the "good witch"( or faerie, or angel) to lead us in the right direction. We may need a compass, a star or a guiding light. But, in the end, we find that we are all made of magic sand and every grain is unique to each of us.
This small blue sparkly ornament reminds me to wish big but to put life into perspective. From across the room this decoration is a shiny presence sitting below the Christmas tree. But, up close, a star is bent and Santa has no shoes on. From a distance it's flaws are unseen. Up close I see the chipped paint and a tired Santa. I must be aware of the difference. It sparkles now in a season of sparkle. But, will it be here when I need to click my heels and make a wish? Will it give me everything I want or will I have the wisdom to know that my acceptance of what comes may not be so easy and the answer..., a reply that I'm not willing to heed. Will the desires of my heart be in balance with the knowledge of my rational mind?
An end of a long year and so many questions....
My only resolution will be to look at each day and try to understand..., to try and make it better. But there's still a little place inside of me that believes in magic sand and hopes that some of it is thrown in my direction. What do you think?
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