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Monday, November 29, 2010

A Good Tired

My grandson was visiting one day when he asked, "Gramma, do you know how you and God are alike?"  I mentally polished my halo while I asked, "No, how are we alike?"  "You're both old," he replied.  ~Author Unknown 

I had to laugh when I read this. It's so like a child. It's so like the Bean..  the ability to make you feel like the most important person in his life and then honesty that takes you to your knees.
We had such a good time this weekend. There were moments of "This is how it's going to be, young man." or " We don't touch the computer and we don't throw the dog's bone across the living room and into the kitchen." but most of the time it was wonderful. The Bean is 5. He's learning how to be a human being. We had to give him a little slack. 
He and the Prospector had an ongoing conversation about Cheerios. Papa told him that he thought Cheerios would be a great present for the Bean's birthday in March. The Bean  said "NO PAPA." and Papa replied, " But you love Cheerios. It's a great gift."  The Bean looked Papa in the eye and said...." PAPA, you don't give Cheerios for presents. ONLY TOYS." So Papa, of course, had to keep bringing it up and every time he said something like "How about some Cheerios with your eggs?" or "Would you like some Cheerios with that piece of chicken?", the Bean would start laughing and it got pretty silly around here.
I made this collage to show you the speed with which we moved for 4 days.....
We have forgotten how children are going, going, going.... from the moment they wake up until they finally fall asleep at night.
Yesterday before we left to meet Daddy and little Bean in Stockton, he had one last run with the dogs....
He ran around the yard with the dogs and then he told me that he didn't want to go home. He got really quiet and stood looking out across the hills. He said, " But I have to go because my brother will be sad if I don't come home." I walked over, gave him a hug and said, "That's OK Bean. You can come back anytime you want to, but I agree that little bean will be sad if you don't go home." He gave this some real consideration  and then said quietly, "Yea, I gotta go home." 
So we went to say goodbye to the goats. 
Bart and the Bean had a moment together with lots of eye contact. Brownie grabbed the hay right out of Bean's hand. Murphy and Freckles seems very thankful that they were getting an extra late morning snack. Then we said goodbye to the goats and walked up to the chicken coop.
The Bean found one egg in a small box but there were three hens in the big nesting box so we closed it back up and let them lay their eggs without any of the ladies getting upset. He carried the egg back to the garage and carefully put it in the outside refrigerator. He's getting so good at this.
Then, one more farewell to all.
 We packed up all of Beans toys, special drawings, artwork, clothes, cookies we made and the apples he bought at the store for his family. He said goodbye to Papa and off we went. We drove down to the truck stop on Highway 5 in Lodi to meet Daddy and little bean at the Taco Bell. We had arranged to meet "half way" so the trip would be only 2 hours, back and forth, instead of 4. 
About 15 minutes into the drive, the Bean fell asleep.
I didn't take a nap! I wanted to sleep too. Oh, how I wanted to sleep.... but I didn't.
Bean woke up to his brother crawling across him saying. "Hey, wake up. Do you got any candy?" He didn't, but he had found a rock that looked like a number "1" on our walk Friday that he had saved to give to his brother. It was amazing that the flat shale rock was shaped this way but little Bean was not too impressed. He like a red sucker better.
We transferred everything from one car to the other and said our goodbyes. My son gave me a hug and said "Thank you, Mom." That made the tiredness go away.
I gave the boys a kiss, waved goodbye and got into the car and headed straight for Starbucks.

My plan was to drive on into Stockton and see my Mother-in-law. She fell and broke her shoulder and hip a few weeks back and has been recuperating in a convalescent hospital for over a month. Last Wednesday she was able to come home. She has family there 24/7 right now. 
She is doing really well and looks good. She is a "trooper". It has been a very hard recovery for her and she is not happy about all of this but she is trying to be patient. She's 89 years old. She has always been so active and in good heath.  She has always had more energy than all of us put together.... no, wait.  Who I'm I talking about? The Bean has that energy too. His great grandmother must have pass all that energy on to him. He must have inherited the Energizer Bunny Gene. The Prospector has it too. It looks like a small animal attached to the DNA with a leash to keep it in place. It's a wild thing. I've seen it. I know it's habits.... intense, active and a mind of it's own. Can be combative and hostile sometimes when it gets loose and runs amuck
I left Stockton and drove home, up into the lovely mountains. I ate dinner and was in bed by 9:00 p.m. I slept for 10 hours straight. UNHEARD OF!! I'm usually a "night owl". The Starbucks latte, the black tea at dinner and the chocolate for dessert didn't even touch the depth of tiredness I felt. 
Today I just took it easy. The dogs keep looking for the Bean and in between they take naps. I'm still tired..... but it's a good tired.


  1. This was a great post. Boys at the Beans age are very active and can wear you out but they are alot of fun to have around. Your pictures are great as usual. I am so glad you had a good time with the Bean on his visit. Glad to hear that your mother-in-law is home and doing ok. My prayers have been with her. Love your new header. Have a blessed day. Madeline

  2. That Energizer Bunny DNA Gene is a real stinker sometimes. My mother had it, but for some reason it skipped one complete generation in our family. You don't even want me to get started on that running amuck thingy. I have to ask... where is the fairness in the EBG (energizer bunny gene)skipping one generation and then dumping a double dose on the next two generations. Trust me, it is cruel and unusual punishment.

    I know exactly what you mean about the good tired though.

  3. I LOVE this post! It simply erupts with life and sweetness and rolls down coating all the "unsweet" parts of life (like a broken hip and serious tiredness). Thank you for letting me tag along on such a precious visit with "The Bean." With my youngest turning 12 very soon, I am ever so aware of how quickly time flies and how swiftly those "energetic" moments pass -- life is to be savored and enjoyed (even if it wears us out to the core). Rest and delight in these memories as you get ready for the next visit. (Maybe it will be filled with TWO beanie boys! Take an extra nap, sweet friend!)


  4. Oh boy do I know how you feel! I have the baby Matthew Mondays & Fridays & frequent overnights like last night. I have had him for 5 days in a row, that's why I have to keep going to the gym to stay fit! He's 19 months old & has the energizer gene for sure!
    But we wouldn't trade our time with them for anything, right?

  5. I'm exhausted just reading about the Bean! I had my nieces and nephews on Sunday and although I was extremely tired and suffering a migraine, I still love to be around that child energy. It means so much to them to hang out with Auntie Kerry who takes them for big walks where they can run amuck!

  6. Your Bean is the same age we were when we met. Did WE have that kind of energy???? Do you suppose our Moms are laughing at that question and saying, “Oh my God, did you ever!”? ~ Dawn

  7. I just do not know what to say- will read this a few more times and wipe my tears away...

  8. Absolutely wonderful post and I felt as though I were there. Precious moments and so priceless.

    I'm either losing it or it's snowing on your blog. I swear I see snow. I love your header photo!!


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